Sunday, July 23rd, 2006
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9:13 pm - the power of words
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well at the moment i am resting on the bottom of dimi's bed as she does the rest of her math work..umm today i totally missed work lol actually i woke up an hour before my shift was supposed to end lol.. but its all gravy cuz my mothers the manager.. but still shame on me... so i woke up round 1...and that's it.. well i came to dimi's round 4 talked bout how confusing and how weird the world works.. and how simple words can change the way you feel .. for example =..sorry is just a simple 5 letter word but some how it makes you feel so much better or it somehow over time makes the problem go away....now is that really what happens? can one word really take away the pain and hurt that some one pressed on you?.. and if thats true.. than why are people hurt.. and why don't our problems just go away?.. it's funny i didn't really think about the power of words before.well not like this... like i knew that words hurt.. but today just opened my eyes a little more... ..guess that's why they say to think before you speak... so.. THINK.. that's all ..good night
current mood:  enlightened
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Saturday, July 22nd, 2006
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5:45 pm - ..poopers..
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hello dearest journal readers.. =) .. sooo bored.. so i'm gonna sit here on my broken computer chair that falls to the floor whenever anyone or anything sits on it.. type on this lovely keyboard.. which surprisingly still has letters and numbers that haven't smudged and just type away and bore you ..lets see ..
was awaken at around 11 by my mother.. yes i said mother.. asked me if i wanted to go gorcery shopping with her.. and because i have no life i got up.. got ready and went to home depo to get the car from my sister.. we did ..and then headed off to costco.. as i wonder i push the cart and realizing that there were just WAYY to many people there.. i head off to the "cloth" section .. my eyes began to chase for a familiar face.. dee.. but dee was no where to be found.. so after a disappointing search..we got everything that we needed.. and then .. then we went.. Oh we went to highland.. Oh i forgot at costco me n my mom were checking out this really cute guy lol..
so ANYWHO.. got home round 3.. had a bite, wasted a bit of time watching the family channel =P..(that smart guy is just oh-so-darn cute..) and was ready to go out.. maybe movies?..."hey fatin (older sister) wanna go and watch the devil where prada??".."ughh maybe".. after about half an hour of complaining.. the answer was no.. so now i sit waiting for michelle to reply to me on msn.. and wasting time reading and writing in lj...so im done.. maybe i'll come back if i can't find something to do..
ps.. yay.. she replies..and if you guys appreciate good music.. do yourselves a favor and listen to this song if you haven't already...
current mood:  alrighty..
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Friday, July 21st, 2006
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5:47 pm
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i'm done.. yay.. been SOO confused bout ppl recently damn it's gootten all twisted dont know WHAT to think.. and really dont wanna be thiking bout that cuz i know the outcome isnt gonna be what i want.. guess you cant always get
what you want....just gotta suck it up ..rite?
-----"To tell me you're not okay
And you needed me all along..."
current mood:  confused
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Saturday, June 10th, 2006
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10:41 pm
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IT OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol well.. pretty much over.. sill gotta do a couple units for comm ut w/e... IM (almost) DONE! at least till summer school but shush enough about school.. lets seee k friday @ 3:00 ish planed to go to stc with friends but then they were being all "let's watch ommon (i dunno how to spell)" and if you didnt know.. im a WUSS yes i said it .. im a lil scaredy cat ...so i didnt go even though im sure i missed out on..INSTEAD dimi came over.. we chilled a bit at my house.. eat n all that fun stuff.. than we decided to go to monica n katrin's house YAY! the FUN!!! we watched just friends.. lol n monica kept having like yelling attacks at dimi n katrin everytime they talked.. FUNNY! and then .. lol its was like 8:30..lol n youth group starts at 8.. so we decided to go anyway! SO me n dimi went home.. got dressed .. n then monica came to pick us up.. n knowing us.. we were a LITTLE late getting oudda the house.. newho... got there.. went to lesson HAD MUCH FUN AFTER IT! lol we just all haung out talked n stuff..11:00pm droped off monica n katrin.. dimi came over to grab here stuff 11:15 mama calls dimis mom n tells her to let dimi sleep over.. 11:30 STILL ON THE PHONE! 11:35 me dimi go up n listen to music.. 11:50..STILL ON THE PHONE.. 12:00 i convince tunte gg for dimi to say.. lol then we all go out for timi's LOL.. ye iknow wre smart.. turn the tv off at 2:00 talk till like 2:30.. sleep... n its the next sday ..we chill with katrin n sandra n dimi goes home n that all lol.. to sum it up HAD ALOT OF FUN !!!
current mood:  calm
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Thursday, April 27th, 2006
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11:47 pm - disappointed in myself..
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ughh okay well im very frustrated with myself.. like ..i know i gotta do something but i still avoid it and im slowly screwing myself over.. n its JUST about school even though that has a lot to do with it.. but just in everyday situations... i dunno i think i subconsciencly wanna see myself fail ... in general..so that i just dont try.. or maybe i just like lieing to myself for comfort..making things seem better than they are.. i dunoo its stupid cause i KNOW if what im doing is right or wrong ..n yes i take it seriously but maybe i just dont know how to confront it.. im making no sence.. but yes..
so things that have been new?.. well easter for me was a about a week ago much fun.. lol i had chocolate.. =P ( i was fasting) and umm yes church was good *smiles* there was lots of candy.. but one keeps standing out..it just looks so yummy lol.. n when i say candy i mean eye candy hahhaha... but its nothing what else what else... well ye that pretty much it just easter...n the whole covering up situations so i dont have to confront the problems.. n i hate it.. but its just so much easier..shame on me.. shame....
current mood:  disappointed
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Tuesday, March 28th, 2006
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8:57 pm - where have i been???
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k.. one word... UNITS!...........wont be here for a while.. unless i need a place to complain.. if i have time to complian...
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Friday, March 10th, 2006
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10:26 pm - nothingbutwords
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UGHH stupid gelaine.. u got me hooked on jack *shakes fist*.. lets us seeeeee.. most recent thing that was .. interesting?.. well gelaine burfday was last saterday.. yesh yesh n that was.... *thinks of word* fun lol.. ummm what else happened.. oh yesh.. jake is no more.. gone *puff* vanished.... and believe me i'm sure.. humm what else.. umm rite now a little confused.. for reasons that i rather not say aloud.. or i guess "type" aloud.. what else.. OH had a total like melt down infront of my youth group leader person.. lol soo embrassing .. but i needed that last friday.. made this week better.. .. cept of course for the confustion.. but that will pass... oh n that i felt sick for the last two day but blish blosh that'l go away soon enough... ummmmmmmm what else.. *thinks* well honestly i dont lead a very interesting life so if you thought this would be interesting.. then i guess you dont know me all that well =P.. OH march break.. oh yes baby! not like its gonna be much of a break.. gotta work my arse off so i can catch up.. its okay i can do it!!! lol.. but tuesday.. i got that day off.. gonna go shopping with mizz rachel addie! yes that will be fun.. n then after that crash at her house for a bit n watch just friends.. hear its really funnie.. what else what else... ummmmmmmm *thinks some more* ..that all?... yes thats all...yes it is.. well.. goodbye children.. and goodbye dee the bee (if your reading this you should feel special that i did that!)..*walks backwards*...bye.....OHH!! hahaha.. justin if you ever read this... stop checkin out the teachers ass! hahah imso phunnie!
current mood: confused
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Wednesday, March 1st, 2006
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11:03 pm - so flippin stressed
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omgosh im gonna flipping die! what the hell am i supposed to choose my f*cking career by monday.. so fliipin stressed out... i cant decide what i'm gonna do with my life.. n i wanna be safe and leave evrything open.. but if i dont have a goal to remind me why im doing what i am than how exactly am i supposed to focus.. n i no i sound like the biggest nerd talking about school but i dont care.. i cant plan out my life when im in friggin gr.10.. AHH! n the stress from the family.. i cant be a friggin doctor or w/e im not good in science... n AHH i dont even no im not friggin smart n i have no direction in my life.... maybe thats whats really buggin me .. ahhh frig im done..pish not gonna waste my friggin time n tears on school UGH! so angry..//so steemed ... so seeking direction.. .
current mood:  stressed
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Friday, February 17th, 2006
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5:02 pm - *sigh*
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so behind..n i ended up doing nothing ALL day..no motivation.. blah meh.. gettin knots in my tummy.. and boredom. n hesitation have taken over me today.. BLAH i dont wanna riht nemore.. thinking bout this is givin me a head ach.. OH wait *thinks* i had one part that was good..like 5 min ago.. michelle told me that she read what i wrote in her year book.. n that she liked it.. so that was good..=P well thats all.. probably going to youth group today..*sandra hope you feel better* and.. lets c.. thats all.. YOU GUYS ROCK DONT EVER CHANGE! =P lol.. now i will make like a bunny and hop away *hops*
..."No matter how hard I try to wash my hands
I can never get'em clean
I could never get them clean"
current mood: craptastic
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Tuesday, February 14th, 2006
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9:02 pm - I want to play with your Lizard heeheehee *mind wanders*
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hello. i am mariam. i am talking to gelaine and she is my best and only friend in the whole world because i are loser. i pick my butt and like hemhorroid or whatever its spelled..and hemmorhoids are my friends too except they are not as cool as gelaine. potassium is bad for you but i like it anyway. i like hats too because they cover up certain things that other people shoud not see..whether on your head or anywhere else. they cover up my hemorrhoids.. very well. well i have to go and talk to gelaine some more because i love her. she is so cool. i would marry her if i could but *sighs* she is too cool for me and now i am left alone with my hats and my hemorrhoids. just another day in the life of mariam.
current mood:  stupid
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5:00 pm - valentine..
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okay so it's valentine's day.. n well i dunnno i feel like i was teh worst valentine person ever lol. i dunno its just that evryone was making a big deal n i felt that there was sumthing i was supposed to do ..or sumthing to live up to.. lol i feel like a NERD.. did i do it right ?lol meh its okay cuz i had justin as my valentine.. he's such a loser too but he's my favorite loser.. n there no "feelings" toward each other other than friends =P really stupid friends n we just joke around about stuff so it doesnt matter if i did nething wrong he knew what he got himself into lol.. soo thats y i love him..such a great friend *thumbs up* thanks for today*hugs* .. humm wat else..
WELL.. at the back of my mind a thought that i thought was gone slowly came crawling back..and well i dont want it to crawl back!! go away go away! stop it making me think ! =p i dunno just kinda stupid this thought i have n no i wll not say what the thought is.. if i wanted you to know i would have already told u.. but ye i want it to stop .. just to stop bugging me.. stop distracting me.. stop messing with me.. stop just stop.. and I KNOW im being stupid n probably making no sense but but you know when u just wanna forget about sumthing.. like the fact that your so behind in school and that you should really be doing work rather than typing a journal.. ye kinda like that.... like you just want to forget about it and you try everthing to stop yourself from thinking about it but he still think about it? *sigh* well yeah
go away!
*sigh* besides this thought that just doesnt seem to leave me alone.. i had a REALLy good day.. i was bitter or nething i felt a lil embrassed lol i dunno just kinda weird feeling inside lol.. OH!! diana thanks soo much for the rose u lil nerd turd.. u shouldnt have! oh n u looked super sexy today.. lol.. thanks so much *hugs* and for doing sumthing u shouldnt have *slaps* u made me feel oh-so-special oh n i felt oh-so-special when i had all those hearts.. but dont worry justin ur's is at the top of my locker..=) well valentine hugs all around *hugs* OH and happy burfday rex!
current mood:  nerdy
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Saturday, February 11th, 2006
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10:50 pm
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i've been really annyoed with rachel recently and i really hope she reads this... i duno its just that she says the stupidest things at the wrong time.. like cant she just leave me alone.. i cant stand her anymore.. shes so inconsiderate of how ppl feel geez! IDIOT! just leave me alone n go drink our 1% milk n just go away! LOL im just keedin im at my bestest freinds house.*rolls eyes*. u no rachel.. n i do hate her... but i hate her in a loving way lol and yes we're "doing work" n we finally got rid of her brother that wouldnt stop playing the guitar lol andnow instead rachels playing it and im updating my lj lol great workers eh.. n we're kinda concerned about a particular person.. we really hope reality clicks into this person's mindset SOON before this person is forced to fall and crash into it ..dont crash..
current mood:  blah
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12:42 am - gonna try again :P
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Okay so im gunna try this just once more.. i dunno why its so hard to keep these things .. meh .. well lets see .. how was my day?.. well over all it was really great with the exception of stupid teachers thinking i would steal.. geezz that really pissed me off... why would i "steal" a camera n start using it right infront of the area?? seriously that was what really agravated me, like i realize it was my fault to keeping it for so long.. but being told that i stole it.. just goes to show how hypocritical are.."in our school we dont juge others" BULL.. but meh .. no sweat of my back i know i didnt do it n God knows and that all that matters...OH! but honestly today must have been one of the best days i've had in a while.. lol failing my math test didnt even bother me.. lol i gotta beat up that diaper man for self-defence class.. that was soo much fun.. such a rush i just wish i could do that weekly.. just let eveything out..=)very fun.. oh n after school lol good times good times.. church youth group went bowling n it was soo much fun lol.. the stupidity that we all have just combined and i dunno just lots of fun n HAHAHA steven nearly peed his pants from the phone prank omg histarical..lol n me losing EVERY game man that gotta be sum sorta record.. and RUNDA! so mad u shoulda came u bum.. just good times and that basically it.. n right now justy listening to music kinda talking or yelling at dee cuz she's not helping me ne..*shakes fist at her* i hope u read this and feel ashamed that ur USELESS to me tehhee...no no never useless.. u no i love u deeeeeeeep down inside my dark bitter heart heehe =p GUYS! now im frustrated i can change the yellow smiley thingys to the bloggy thingy..=( such a sad world isn't it?..oh n stacy i just thought of u cuz im listening to stacy's mom u no that song.. isnt it just awesome.. OH!!!! and michelle HI! yeah lol... oh n im so happy this week is over so much stress from the stupid history project lol 35 outta 40 baby!!! i swear this week only has made me so sleep deprived.. lol wadda gonna do......... well that all sorry about all the lol's i just relaized they like exploded on this entery..but what can i say i had a good day =D
current mood:  bouncy
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